It is my birthday today. And I can surely say; at this moment in my life, I’m extremely happy, despite looking like I’m from the Addams family. Not only it being my birthday made me happy, but the positive outlook on life I have gained and how much I have advanced and developed as a person.
I didn’t come from a good family, and haven’t had good relations with divorced parents and a broken home. I never had friends at school - I was shy and introverted. The first time I ever made friends turned out a disaster, and only put me in a place to be bullied like I had been for all of my childhood. I was tall, spotty, and not the most attractive of people then (seriously), and I had never known affection until very late. This continued on way into my teens.
You see many people talk about how their life still sucks, but I am not one of them; I am genuinely happy. Above is me smiling. Me. Not a smile for the camera, or an edited one, but just me genuinely smiling. I think the fact I can have a picture like that contrasts with what my life used to be like. I am extremely proud of myself - I have overcome those who put me down. I have transformed into a confident, happy and talented young man, and I say that with no vanity.
A few years ago I could have never dreamed of this happening, but with a push from my inner self and support of new found friends, I was able to be happy. And that leads onto you. Yes: you. Thank you for following me, for whatever reason, even if it is not one of importance. To know people are interested without malicious reasons or to be horrible to me makes me so happy, and knowing there are over 1500 of you out there… I can’t explain it. Seeing as I’ve never experienced this feeling of belonging, it’s hard to explain.
So: this is a big thank you to anyone who has shown me any form of kindness, whether you care or not, and being able to overcome prejudice, issues with my body and sexuality, and other issues I have experience/ inflicted upon myself. I’m sure you’ve all had something similar happen. THANK YOU. <3
I hope I can inspire some of you to feel the same. If you ever need to talk, I am here, whether to support or just for fun.
(Thanks for reading this if you did)